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Freight hoppers think you’re a slave.

I have been watching a lot of videos of trains on YouTube lately, rail fan videos. It’s good meditation for me, and anyway, I have lots of time. I have also watched videos about freight hoppers, hobos. I have seen … Continue reading

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what to do what to do what to do

Should I give my mind and time over to the technology gods? …constantly feeding the insatiable appetite for more know-how, more technology, more immersion in emerging technology, making myself a better information worker…what about this writer impulse that WILL NOT … Continue reading

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still something not quite right

There’s still something not quite right with my social skills – that will maybe never be right. I just don’t plunge enough. Or maybe ‘plunge’ is not the right word. Or maybe my inability to find the right word is … Continue reading

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My mom was diagnosed schizophrenic in the 80s. There were times when she needed to ’go in’ to get ’the help that she needed’ because of scary things she was saying or scary ways she was acting. The decision to … Continue reading

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I happened to be up at 4 am, and I heard her down there banging around her store room, babbling. I don’t know if there was even anyone there to hear what she was saying. She was probably sorting through … Continue reading

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Various people I know seem to be headed toward scary climaxes. One person I know (online) died. Some people I know are doing ‘perfectly.’ Is this a normal array? I have the feeling that I need to renegotiate various service … Continue reading

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Filling the Void Successfully Since 1998!

It was 1998. My mom died the day before Mothers Day. About a week after her funeral, I took acid, and I wigged out a little. I drove a hulking mass of steel to the grave yard during a freezing … Continue reading

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