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The Never of Now

It never truly feels like I’m at where I’m at. I am not legitimately in my proper place ever — in time or space –where ever I find myself at (the workplace, for example … MOSTLY… but… also: any place or time where people … Continue reading

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The Dirt on All of My Coworkers

Just kidding: I don’t have much dirt on them. I work for Mormons! I don’t know what this means yet. So far I just know that they do not drink, and they work their asses off. And they’re from Utah. That’s … Continue reading

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tumbling as usual through space and time toward my personal endpoint, my death

I submitted my resume to a contractor website, and they called me. They have two prospects that they like me for. They sent my resume to them. One prospect is a company that does railroad software and data — this would be neato. … Continue reading

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I have successfully blocked all thoughts.

. . . except for all the ones that slip through. The brain just doesn’t stop. I’ve seen writers try to calculate how many thoughts occur per minute…per day…blah blah…but: Where does one thought end and another begin. The only … Continue reading

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Opportunity Rings Out (faintly)

The Outlook Email notification dings occasionally –on the work computer– but I mostly ignore it. The occasional car zooms by outside, down this country road I live on. I look up at each car out of curiosity. I just saw … Continue reading

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I really need to visit my sister. It has been far too long since I’ve gone to see her, and I’m worried about how she’s doing. The last time I saw my her, she was in the hospital. She had … Continue reading

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I Worry

I can always find a set of risks and worries in my current situation: Tetanus: The floor vents in the ‘new’ home have some rust. Fire: We were hearing a clicking. It went away after I messed with the breakers. … Continue reading

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